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I find myself in an utterly isolated space this past year. Having turned 72, significant only in having to accept that I have witnessed this body age at an extraordinary pace these past couple of years. I am an ole hippy who held the vision of "love one another, sisterhood and brotherhood, peace" and as years passed, felt more and more alien in this world. Early on in 2020, I recognized the insanity and began researching, going down one rabbit hole after another, in shock and awe repeatedly as illusions and delusions were shattered and the horrors, corruption and lies revealed. Gone is the community in which I used to live, my home, my work, clients (I've done healing work my entire life), my "friends", fellow healers, teachers I trusted and looked to for guidance and affirmation, my family and all familiar landmarks as I've been renting a room in a stranger's home and she has no interest in communicating from the heart. I was deemed a "threat to humanity" as I wandered maskless, fearless and free, along the ocean shores of my once island community. Retirement always a foreign concept, I watch my little savings dwindle and wonder what will happen when Social Security ends. The purge has been breath-taking, thorough and complete...profoundly heart-breaking and traumatizing. I weep at any image of love, beauty and redemption that appears before me online or in a movie. I come across people on my walks in Nature and am asked if I'm vaccinated, only to have them pull away and spew ridiculous untruths. I tried connecting with people in groups for awhile but it leaves me unnourished and empty. Recognizing the brilliant Intelligence of this orchestration of utter isolation and solitude, the only direction was inward to the silence and stillness of the Being...I surrendered...a moment to moment undertaking that never fails to bring me to a place of unspeakable yet terrifying Peace and emptiness. I recognized the collective psychoses that comes from not knowing our True Identity and allowed the painful realization of the mirror reflection. There is no more ambition or desire. I diligently and devotedly stay vigilant to what is unfolding, and delight in those magnificent beings who are speaking out for Truth, Freedom, Peace and Love. Your heart, Charles Eisenstein is a beautiful beacon of Light. It seems the part I am playing is as a Holder of Gracious Space, in constant prayer that humanity discovers its True Identity. The miracles needed will come from our discovered and shared Divinity, the majesty, power, intelligence and pure Love that we, in Truth, are. The frigid temps and frozen, snow-covered earth where I live cause an ineffable longing for Springtime, a flowering both within and without. I am simply here, being the Light of the World. I await the arising of Source energy to guide me to kindred souls and a welcoming place on the planet. I ride the waves of devastating emotion, frightening thoughts, painful sensations and discover over and over...I am not any of that...I am here, Gracious Space, holding, allowing, witnessing this transformation, this crucifixtion, this inevitable resurrection. Blessings and Love to all of you! Love only is Real.

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... beautiful heartfelt writings, yours and Charles, that mirror my own experience, and are, in fact, 'beams of light'. I love your 'settling in' as: Holder of Gracious Space ... I might borrow that term myself, as it is where I have found myself as well. many blessings.

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Jan 23, 2022·edited Jan 23, 2022

Thank you for your kind words. Check out Joy Truscott...I borrowed the term "gracious space" from her. It rang so true. Her work in energy healing is wondrous. She's in South Africa. You can find her!

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Well said. Beautifully touching. We are in this journey together and Charles helps us remember that.

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You are not alone! My husband and I (66 and 69) are feeling we must leave our beautiful home we've lived in for over 37 years here in the Bay Area. Our friends have dwindled down to just a very few unvaccinated. We took a voyage of discovery around the USA this past fall and are now planning our 2nd voyage this spring for several months to delve deeper into a couple of locations, likely to move by the end of 2022. It is time to find a new tribe. Charles' community (naascommunity.org) provides a starting place. At our age and yours, this is quite daunting. But obviously, we have signed up for this life and luckily we are still healthy and strong enough to do it! You are NOT alone!!!!!

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Thank you for sharing, Amy! I haven't a clue! And not having a partner or comrade or fellow-journey-person...I'm feeling quite daunted and ever-so-lonesome for the shared experience. Wishing you and your hubby all the best.

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I wish you both good good luck in finding a new home. I think many are in your shoes.

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“the only direction was inward to the silence and stillness of the Being“

Resonate with this one big time. Seems like the right thing to emphasize in the MOMENT...thank you for this wonderful post....

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I am your sister and with you as you walk this path. Love to you.

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This is heartbreaking and gorgeous, Carrie. I love the phrase you borrowed, Holder of Gracious Space. I so feel we're in a chrysalis time of waiting for something beautiful to be born. Sending you love and peace in the darkness.

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Thank you, Tereza. Yes! Something exquisite, spectacular, beyond what we can conceive of, is being born. The awakening to the Truth of Who and What We Are is our one and only job. With that Knowing Within, we will rise out of our sleep, guided by our own Source connection, embodying the pure love, infinite intelligence, beauty and power that we are. We are the Light, Love and Truth. We are the ones we've been waiting for!

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I couldn't help but reply again because you put that so well, "The awakening to the Truth of Who and What We Are is our one and only job." I have been feeling that so much. I think I need to borrow it for my next Third Paradigm YouTube. May I?

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Second reply. Please realize that discovering who and what you are has nothing to do with your mind, body, thoughts, beliefs, projections, etc. I'm referring to Pure Awareness, Pure Consciousness...not personality and the body/mind which we have been programmed to believe we are. It's beyond all concepts. It's discovering the formlessness...Pure Love...Heart...Knowing...which has no shape or form. Beyond mind.

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Of course. It's Truth. Beyond mine. No need to ask. Thank you.

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Jan 23, 2022·edited Jan 23, 2022

Dear Carrie I love your openess about your feelings, here is it also a frozen world , during the night and morning, but after 14.00 it becomes warm and i see the sun, and i know as you That Love is Real! Bless you and Charles , who knows how to open our hearts. In the Netherlands ( were i don't live anymore, but i'm Dutch )we have each sunday morning Light Meditations. People can stay silent or communicate written or in speech to each other. That helps also.

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Thank you for appreciating what I shared. Yes. Community is sooo important. I'm happy you have yours. I look forward to discovering mine. For now, it seems I am to experience being seemingly alone and isolated. Profound inner growth is happening and I'm in awe about that. Blessings, Carrie Grace

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Carrie, thank you for your beautiful and heartfelt sharing. Your words speak so deeply to my experience & process over the past 2 years. Everything crumbling around me. Witnessing my dear spiritual teachers, friends & dharma group in my small CO town fully participating in the insanity. I’ve always been a seeker of truth & this time, discovered far more darkness than I ever thought possible. It finally all made sense. My life’s path has always led me to what’s true. My deepest connection has always been with Nature, where i spend much of my time reprogramming my being. I have continued to teach children how to connect with their True Nature, and have gathered new friends of like mind. I do see a time when all of us who are Beings of the Light will reunite. The short film by Charles ‘You are not Alone’ is exactly what I see.

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Thank you for all the kind 'likes' Erika. Last night I posted a video ( https://youtu.be/CsA5cf04t40 ) called Digging into the Data that talks about the strategy I've mentioned here. And it talks about the spiritual side and all the tenderness, caring & heartbreaking stories I've found in Charles' community. I quote Carrie that our only job is Awakening to the Truth of Who and What We Are (a great title for a future episode) and that faith is having faith in each other--which has never been harder, in my lifetime. But I explore the possibility that we're all people of good hearts and good minds who've been lied to. Rather than being divided over the question of vaccines, the real question is whether Federal agencies enable corruption, defined as prioritizing private gain over the public good. I know that's a far cry from the retreat to nature, which is SO important, but I'm leaving it as a trail of breadcrumbs that there might be a way back, at some point in our collective future ;-)

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I feel the deception goes much deeper than the corrupt governments of the world. I used to believe everyone was good at heart. I no longer believe that after what I’ve learned, experienced & witnessed. As a start, check out the book ‘energy vampires’ by Dr Christiane Northrup. Narcissists & Sociopaths do not have empathy. Many of the world political leaders and self-proclaimed leaders are sociopaths & know exactly what they are doing.

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Dear Erika, Thank you for sharing your Light! Bless your beautiful heart! Yes, Nature is my solace as well as the stillness, silence within...that which never comes and never goes. We're all being called Home. I am nourished by your words and knowing you are HERE! Love and gratitude, Carrie

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I, too, am deeply nourished knowing beautiful people like you are in the world. I feel your heart & presence. The stillness, silence & Nature all together are my solace. We are indeed being called home. 💜

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Beautiful words-- thank you so much 💗

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Great writing. I am crying, as I get to the end. It's all beyond my ability to put it into words. The world I thought I knew is gone. Not that I loved it; much was wrong, and painful. But now it's this daily play of nothing is the same even though it is familiar.

I can't pretend to be able to go back to the same activities; the things I thought I wanted to do lost meaning, and between the time I get up, to the time I go to bed, there's this short space in between where I roam around trying to find crumbs of what is no longer here. And so, learning to be in a human body when nothing around me feels solid is perhaps closer to truth than what I had before. But it hurts.

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Dear Melo, thank you for sharing. Yes, it does hurt...alot...at times. And it's really really scary. I urge you to go deeper and deeper within, get very quiet inside...paying no attention to the incessant stream of thoughts, attitudes, concepts, ideas, feelings, sensations, etc. and then discover what is left after you've emptied yourself out of all the mind noise. YOU are Pure Awareness. THIS is a shocking revelation TO THE MIND. That silence, peace, stillness that remains is what you are! Meanwhile, consider that you are undergoing a profound transformation...literally from caterpillar to butterfly. Surrender to what I call "the goop phase"...when you're cocooned and all that you've identified with is now dissolving...Surrender is safe. Letting go is safe. Trust the process and trust your own experience...allow Life to take care of Life. You are THAT. So much love and gratitude to you and for you Presence here.

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Melo, that is so beautifully written and vulnerable and raw. I think that we, especially those like you and Carrie with deep awareness and feeling, are a crucible in which the old is being burnt away and distilling down to the truth. I get you on that feeling of roaming around like a ghost in an unreal world. I feel like that every day now, pointless and aimless. I have one of my YouTube videos called From FOMO to JOMO: the Joy of Missing Out. It might speak to your feeling, and concludes that we should stay with the stuckness. That's what this time is for, I think.

https://youtu.be/5ZGY7uPs8K4

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so many of us i believe feel this way ... not totally hopeless, not totally helpless, but surely hints of both, and mostly this deep ache inside for witnessing of the [ongoing] unraveling profit&self-centered destruction of what is so gently sacred: the deep thread of lively, sensory interconnection with nature [and among humans], the fragile preciousness of life, the sit-in-the-dirt [away from screen & technology] preciously present interface with children, the profound gratitude that makes it impossible for one to wreck any kind of havoc. I know these things are out there. I feel it here in your comments, I see it in the playful squirrels outside my window, in the wind blowing the great Fir branches, in a few unmasked smiling faces in the parking lot, I feel it 'wanting' to express itself everywhere, and yet? It feels abused, disrespected, ignored, replaced, smothered and restrained. How? do we make it BIG again? This is the painful question. It is why I like the phrase: "Holder of Gracious Space". I do feel a power in this. Collectively I do believe it matters. Does anyone have information on 'alternative' private secure social-interactive platforms [not FB]? I wondered about creating an online place to 'share-hence-culminate, a collective who "holds gracious space" and can also share experiences, and, ... if you think this would actually 'matter' or not? I really just don't know anymore what actions truly and honestly DO 'make a difference'. Perhaps it is just as simple as pausing for a moment and asking ourselves, before our every action: "is this the KIND thing to do?"

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Have you read the Urantia Book?

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I am with you Carrie.

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Do you love those who believe in the science of vaccines? Do you love the healthcare workers, beleaguered and at the end of their rope, with no agenda other than to stop the unnecessary suffering, who beg people to get vaccinated to save themselves and others? Do you love the people unable to get lifesaving care in time for things like strokes and accidents because hospital ICU beds are full of people with serious COVID illnesses, most of whom refused to get a vaccine that millions of others have gotten because they understand that the risks from the shot are far less than the risks of COVID? I appreciate your spirit and wish you well. I hope … well, I’m sure you don’t care what I hope. I expect an onslaught of unloving responses and admonishments for asking such questions of a brightly shining soul like you. How sad that this is where we are now. May you be well.

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Hi, Cathie. The question that you raise is exactly what I've been pondering this morning. As Carrie's post attests, there is a lot of judgement and anger against people who are reading and hearing two different sets of facts: one from gov't agencies and the other from sources being actively suppressed by gov't. These two sets of facts contradict each other. US states and counties get reports back--from the information they've given to the CDC--saying the unvaccinated are 3X more likely to die (for instance). But the overall rates of 3000 counties show no correlation between vaccines and Covid death rates. By country, there's a slight positive correlation. These are taken from public official data, so they're easy to verify. Shouldn't overall vaccination rates lead to lower overall death rates if the county reports are true?

What you're saying is perfectly reasonable given the assumption that we're getting back the same data we're putting in. Our supervisors have made hard decisions based on it that have shuttered almost half of small businesses, raised addiction and suicide rates, closed schools and multiplied mental health issues among children. At the same time in 2021, non-Covid adult deaths in people under 50 have gone up 23% in CA, as one example. Why? And now the CDC will no longer collect Covid death stats. Why?

Rather than tearing each other apart, we could simply audit our own 2021 data with the backing of a county supervisor, who would certainly want to know if we've been intentionally misled. Your premise, as I understand it, is that gov't agencies can't be corrupted. Others, especially who've read RFK's book as Charles is, would know that it's not only possible for agencies to prioritize private gain over public health, but it's so built into the system that it doesn't even cause a scandal. I think that you, like all of my beloved neighbors and my county supervisors, are a smart, caring, loving person who's been lied to. We have the power to find out. It's our data.

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Tereza...It's like you channeled my mind...and you did it with likely more kindness and compassion. Both "sides" of this issue think the other side is drinking the KoolAid and as you point out, the data is actually there for us to see. It's a harsh reality to for many that our corporations and gov't may not have our best interest at heart, but just go back to 2019. Corporate pollution, the pharma fueled opioid crisis, our factory food systems, exploding childhood auto-immune issues, unprecedented wealth inequality...all of this didn't happen by accident , they don't rely on conspiracy theories, they are the consequence of a broken system. My prayer is that people are waking up that "going back to normal" is not the answer. We now have the opportunity to create new systems that work for all life on this planet.

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Yes! Creating those new systems are exactly what my book, How to Dismantle an Empire, and my YT channel, Third Paradigm, are about. You're exactly right about all the indicators of gov't-corporate collusion in 2019, pre-pandemic. And gov't colluding with business is the actual definition of fascism, not "something kinda racist" as Matt Taibbi points out. We live in a capitalist democracy, which is a contradiction in terms. Capitalism is a system of concentrating wealth, or control of the assets. Democracy is a system of distributing power. The two are at odds and power is always going to be held by those who control the assets.

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Thanks. I'm good. I listen to actual people, actually dealing with the disease. I snorted out loud at "Your premise, as I understand it, is that gov't agencies can't be corrupted." I have a healthy amount of skepticism for all bureaucracy, including government, and I distrust people who have motivations based mostly on greed and power (the Republican party, for example.) But I will not succumb to conspiracy thinking based on misguided people "doing their own research" and gullibly deciding that's what they want to believe cuz it makes them feel good. As for RFK, do you mean the man who spoke at the rally yesterday in D.C.? The one who made an absurd anti-Semitic comment in his speech re: Anne Frank, Hitler, etc. The one speaking at this rally of sick-minded people?: "While language referencing totalitarianism was common throughout the speeches, references to the Holocaust were found largely on signs, one of which read, "Make the Nuremberg Code great again!" … Another sign with clear anti-Semitic sentiments read, ‘Corrupt, N.I.H., Big Pharma Mafia, Big C.D.C. Cartel; Big Fraud Media: Your circumcision is dividing America! You all have foreskin-blood stained money in your thug hands!!’ Other attendees donned attire and held signs that promoted former President Donald Trump or that attacked President Joe Biden. Many also wore shirts with ‘Defeat the Mandate,’ the name of the event.“

Memo to the genius rally-goers: There IS no national vaccine mandate. Sigh...

No. I will not listen to RFK or anyone else stuck in this weird vortex of hate, ignorance, faux victimization, and weaponization of self-centered impulses. I will not make nice with or give the benefit of the doubt to people who run around using sick anti-Semitic propaganda to promote lies, who want to use violence and mass mobs to get their way (threatening school boards and fellow parents with violence, shrieking at children wearing masks, etc.), and who put their own weird concept of "liberty" and "rights" above the health of their own families. I will not trust you to be a voice of reason if you purposely shun proven ways to protect children, the immunocompromised, and the otherwise vulnerable from a horrific disease, because "audits." I will not accept that the entire universe of doctors, medical professors, epidemiologists, nurses, and hospital staff who provide guidance and information are ALL diabolically part of some huge scam intended to do whatever the outrage of the day is: turn us all into slaves, put microchips in us, install Communism, ban Christianity, or whatever other lies the creepy RWNJs are selling.

I'm sorry. You can put it as sweetly as possible. You can try to flatter me. You can audit data up the wazoo. I will not EVER align myself with the people who are on the side of Q, Trump, Republican liars, and rightwing media. (Talk about getting lied to!!!! Tucker Carlson et al should be in prison for misleading gullible people to their deaths.)

I feel sad for you. And RFK. And Charles. And all the misguided souls being sucked into a bizarro world. ... Of course, I'm sure you think the same of me. Go for it. I don't care what people think of me. I care about truth and facts.

All I ask is that if you get exposed to covid, and refuse to do the simple kindness of wearing a mask, please stay home to protect others. And if you or a loved one actually gets covid, and it's a bad case, and you/they have trouble breathing, and you/they need high-level care and are hospitalized, I hope you appreciate the hypocrisy of damning the integrity of the healthcare workers who will endanger themselves and their families doing their very best to save your life – despite your very researched choice to say the hell with them.

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Cathie, you've responded to a lot of things I didn't say, and have assumed a lot of feelings I have, but not actually addressed what I did say. When you "snorted out loud at 'Your premise, as I understand it, is that gov't agencies can't be corrupted.'", you said it was because we agree that they can. You attribute the potential for corruption to Republican but federal agencies stay the same no matter which administration's in charge. Fauci, for example, has worked under at least four administrations both Democrat and Republican.

I've never said that hospital administrations have lied. What I observed is that the reports sent to state and county officials, whether from WA or AZ or CA were remarkably similar--high level glossy exec reports with lots of charts and 20 pt type for the takeaway point--the unvaccinated are getting infected, hospitalized and dying at higher rates. When the CDC announced they'd stop collecting Covid death data, it confirmed my suspicion that states weren't doing their own analysis but sending it to a centralized agency. So all it would take is for that one agency to corrupt the data in order to make sensible public officials make harmful decisions.

Everything you're saying is based on that one takeaway point, yes? So all we'd need to do to find out if that's true is for one county supervisor in one US county to find out what info their hospital gave to the CDC in 2021 and whether it matches what came back.

That seems like a small amount of work in order to answer the question tearing the country apart right now, which isn't about the virus or vaccine but about corruption. I'm not saying the hell with anyone, btw. I'm very respectful of other people's choices and considerate of following any protocol that makes them feel safe, including masking and social distancing. I would never "damn the integrity of the healthcare workers" but "...the entire universe of doctors, medical professors, epidemiologists, nurses, and hospital staff" doesn't hold one view. The data we're being given, which does only validate one view, is coming from a single Federal agency, the CDC. If there is the potential of corruption and the overall data doesn't match the data they're giving us, shouldn't we find out?

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Sources? Motive? A believable reason why Dr. Fauci et al would want to “corrupt the data in order to make sensible public officials make harmful decisions”? A single credentialed, non-controversial journalist who has researched and reported this? Eyewitness accounts from a majority of hospital staff saying they’ve seen deaths being over-reported and records altered, etc.? Yeah. I won’t hold my breath. I invite you to watch The First Wave, a documentary by National Geographic that chronicles the experiences of healthcare staff, patients, and families in a Bronx hospital in the first 4 months of the pandemic. Normal people without agendas speaking directly about their experiences. Not a bunch of those experts you distrust. Just give it a watch. Really.

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You write, "I distrust people who have motivations based mostly on greed and power (the Republican party, for example.)" You attribute greed and power to an entire party that's half of our government voting system. Yet you reject without any knowledge a 480 pp. book detailing, with thousands of footnotes, the evidence of what Anthony Fauci has done for, apparently, greed and power.

This, and your statement that you "feel sad... for Charles and all the misguided souls being sucked into a bizarro world" makes me wonder about your motive for being here. You're clearly not here to read the author. So how much are you being paid to throw around insults and stir up controversy?

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"Do you love those who believe in the science of vaccines? Do you love...."

Speaking only for myself: Yes of course, all of the above, Cathie Schau.

To me, Love is not just an idea-- it is a state of being, a conscious energy, a physical presence of simple beauty, peace and truth within ones' body/mind. "Cherry-picking" (of anything/anyone) is not allowed else it flees from us and one must walk alone, slogging through life lost, anxious, judgmental, constantly "on edge", embattled, embittered, always needing things to go our way, always needing other people to behave the way we want them to, etc. etc.

Not saying its easy-- for me, keeping Love alive inside takes everything I got. And sometimes, hell, let's be honest, lots of times I just don't got enough. The more unsettled the world gets, the more people get stressed-out & the harder it is to keep our Love alive.

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May you also be well. May you also stop watching the fake news on MSM and do your own research and use your own brain.

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🤦🏻‍♀️ Riiiight

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It’s hard for me, too, that vaccination is a polarizing point in this community (and so many). I Charles’ writing resonates deeply with me in so many levels, and his anti-vaccine arguments have been enlightening. That said, I cannot agree on with this point. My hope is that we can focus on where we agree, not where we differ. There’s enough division in the world already.

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Have you read the Urantia Book?

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Hi, Susan. I have friends who've studied it for decades and gave me a copy. For myself, I didn't find that it was meaningful in a way I could apply to my life. But I only glanced through it, so I'm sure I missed a lot. What I have studied for 18 yrs is A Course in Miracles. I once had the chance to interview Charles and said that his worldview seemed so similar, had he read it? He said that he gets that a lot but had never read it. I have to say, that puzzled me. If there's a 'channeled' text that teaches a way of seeing in complete contradiction to the world, and you through your own reason and intuition have come to 80% of the same conclusions, why wouldn't you be interested in finding out the other 20%? For me, it was like breathing oxygen when I found it because I'd thought I was alone in what seemed obvious and logical to me. It's definitely been grounding when I went through panic attacks at the beginning of the pandemic, and makes me patient with the events around us because I don't need to know the plan, only that there is a plan and I'm part of it.

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Like Course in Miracles also but never studied it in depth. I think whatever we seek answers for or understanding of we will find. Key is you have to ask.

Uranyia Book answers all my questions about why I'm here. Why it's important, what the goal is, and how to get there. Others find those answers other places. Wish you all the best on this amazing journey.

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I have felt this manic depression this month. Wilds swings every week. I have a small law firm and few folks come in the doors, since we have normalized Zoom meetings, Zoom Court, and Zoom consults and appointments. It is day of joy when I am airbudsless and can visit for a few minutes with our also human interaction starved mailman. Dealing with parents in crisis, whose children have been placed in temporary (and some eventual permanent) state care, is some days daunting, discouraging, and maddening. But working with this population also has bright lights when parents succeed in reunifying with their kids and the cases are dismissed.

I am 19 months from age 70, when I plan to hang up my legal hat and transition to more joyful, soulful work creating and facilitating ceremonies like weddings and funerals. As I consider my work and business now, and what I need to do to close the present, sell the house, move to a more conservative friendly state with more personal freedoms, it is all overlaid with the current ongoing mania in my state for masks, mandates, jabs, and restrictions. It is fraught with concern that I could be forced to break my commercial lease early, sell my house as is, move without a plan preparing the way. It is steeped in worry that our financial system could collapse as some predict, and if not that, at least worry that inflation will hamper my financial ability to exit as I have envisioned for the past five years.

It is such a liminal time! So much uncertainty! The usual uncertainty that comes with life transitions is magnified due to the forces on one side pushing for a Great Reset and the forces on the other doing all possible to instigate a Great Awakening of the American and world population to prevent what appears to be an worldwide authoritarian takeover using Covid now and Climate Change as the next act to bring it to fruition.

My most overriding sense is, we who are alive today, no matter what generation, we’re born for this very experience. I believe we chose to be here for this time, this experience, andd we are the bravest of the brave. We are the greatest and mightiest spiritual warriors who chose to be born in order to be here, in this time. Every action, no matter how small, matters. Quantum theory tells us that a butterfly fluttering its wings on one side of the world impacts something far, far away. Heartmath Institute has proven that positive thoughts by a small group of people watching a surgery on video, cause less bleeding and adverse events than a surgery without the intentional thoughts vibrating into the ether. By just standing firm in our principles, by just smiling maskless, at people on the street or in a store, or believing that all this is part of a bigger picture that we cannot see, but our positive part in it will make a difference, we will change the world in a way we do not now know but it will be the best that is yet to come. When I start feeling depressed, I j hold that thought. I hold the idea that my part is small, but very important. All I am obligated to do is hold on to the thought that we are not here by accident. We will someday see the big picture and understand. Until then, all my dear friends, hold fast to the rod.

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Thank you for such an open and beautiful share. I’m deeply touched and strengthened by your msg.

I’m writing from bed. Recovering from a lung infection (otherwise know as COVID). I was hit hard and am now dealing with a state of depletion and exhaustion amongst other symptoms. I’m getting slightly better every day. When I was deep in the infection phase I felt a depression I’ve never felt before. I work as a transformational coach where feelings and the inner world is my bread and butter. So I’m deeply familiar with different state of my own being. This depression wa something else. It was as if something descended on me and covered me like a very dark cloud. I remember also the moment when I felt in my body when something shifted and it has left me. This is not a normal virus. I have no doubt in my mind that it’s engineered.

Getting the infection, and nearly dying from it, has changed something in. Awakened something that was ready to be deeply seen after 20 years of meditations training and teaching. What you wrote here is something I felt deeply in my bones

“ My most overriding sense is, we who are alive today, no matter what generation, we’re born for this very experience.”

Yes! It brought tears to my eyes. Yes! I sensed it so strongly for few weeks now. Like something I know through my cells, not a cerebral knowing.

I’m filled with joy to hear about your future plans. People need your lights and depth.

It feels me with joy that even though I don’t know you, I know we’re walking together on a path that matters

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I am kind of an anomaly in my profession. I didn’t go to law school until 41. I taught college writing courses in my thirties before going to law school. In my twenties, I was a stay home mother to four kids until I escaped the religion in which I was raised (and five generations of pioneer polygamists behind me). A divorce at age thirty put me on another path. Five weeks before my dad was killed by an elderly out of control driver who went off the road and hit my dad on the sidewalk, I was attuned as a Reiki Master. It is my Reiki practice, like your meditation practice that informs my life. I had a car accident in December (I am okay but my Subaru, which saved me is totaled), then I got sick with one thing, then another, and I am just now coming out of it. I have not done my daily online Barre3 workouts since December 14, the day before my accident. I need to get back to it, because it is a path out of the malaise. I am a breast cancer survivor, having been diagnosed after I graduated from law school three weeks before the bar exam (which I failed), and the day before my mastectomy. I have taken great inspiration from Richard Bach’s Illusions, Dannion Brinkley’s Saved by the Light, and Dr. Eben Alexander’s story of his near death experience. I truly believe we are here for a reason and even with my most recent accident, believe we all “have a time,” that is, as Richard Bach says, “If you are still alive, your mission on Earth is not accomplished.”

I believe once we are free of our physical bodies, we will know we are cohorts in this battle, this war to bring Light to the world. We will find each other and we will celebrate what we accomplished. It is no accident we are here. Hold the Light. Radiate the Light!

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You might find this clip of Rupert Spira profoundly provocative! "The unknown is a concept"...he looks at our idea of death...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CePJJpioazQ&t=18s

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Last year at this time my daughter and her 2 girls were dealing with the nightmare that is "Social Services". This year we are free and together. I went before the judge (online) wearing pearls and a red dress and asserted that ours was a success story. It worked. Thank you for your courage and perseverance.

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I am SO HAPPY for you and your children! I am so proud of you for your hard work to achieve reunification! You are a warrior, Mama Bear, and a survivor! After you get your feet back under you, in a few years, consider being a Parents’ Advocate to help other parents reunify with their children. I work with someone who works in that role and she has helped so many parents get their children home. Big hugs and love to you and your family!

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Of all ages, yes! I'm 26, travelling alone through Portugal. I'm living with a vaccinated couple who think anyone unvaccinated is nuts - I haven't told them. Their body language just becomes so aggressive any time they talk about COVID. My emotions are all over the place also - up, down, in, out. And my current surroundings feel so inadequate to share any of that. The people here are so completely emotionally cut-off. I'm here for a few more days and then I travel on, hopefully to a place with a bit more warmth. I did my best to bring some light here and they're very glad having me, but their attitude is too far from what I know we need to live. On a daily basis I feel terrified and steadfast.

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Love and support to you as you weather this storm. Stay true blood!

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Your words especially these are the core to how our thoughts words and intrusion can change the world. Thank you deeply for the reminder 💗

"My most overriding sense is, we who are alive today, no matter what generation, we’re born for this very experience. I believe we chose to be here for this time, this experience, andd we are the bravest of the brave. We are the greatest and mightiest spiritual warriors who chose to be born in order to be here, in this time. Every action, no matter how small, matters. Quantum theory tells us that a butterfly fluttering its wings on one side of the world impacts something far, far away. "

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Thank you ❤ I needed this in this exact moment as I sit in confusion and despair of my relationship just ending due to the collective polarity and brainwashing of hate.. I am doing my best to see that glimmer of light.

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I'm desperately trying to keep my relationship from ending for the same reasons. It would have ended but for the kids, where I am the only thing keeping them from the injections.. and I worry if the relationship was over, I would lose that battle, given the legal bias in favor of mothers and doctors. I guess I am hoping to weather the storm until the madness passes? If it passes...

But, I did experience the joy of my 4 year old hugging her best friend on a playdate. She was unmasked, outdoors.. he was masked despite just recovering from covid. Still better than it has been!

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Same here. Universe is clearing the relationships that no longer serve our evolution. Trust in the divine plan. Sending love from the same boat x

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I'm in the boat too. Love to you both.

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Thank you Charles and YES! You are so spot on and I am left feeling less alone. I am traveling in Portugal with my son. It is an intentional search for somewhere I can go where I am less uncomfortable as my small and scenic Colorado town no longer feels like home. My son and I took turns having Covid, which in a bigger picture was nice as we cared for one another and did not suffer much from it other than the fear, in my case, of what could happen… There have been a number of days I have said to my son, “I am so happy,” and surprised myself with the words. There have been a number of times we are talking and I start to cry…for so many reasons. And there was one day when I said I wanted to just tune things out and I put my hands over my ears and said, “La, la, la, la….” And that makes me laugh as I have done and felt so many things you write about. And like one of your commenters, I am worried about inflation and personal financial security; I am ready to go home and sell my house and move to a nearby state, and maybe a new country (and that feels unreal as the mind says that it is easier to stay and do nothing—it is what keeps people in an abusive situation after all—and I feel unwelcome in my town where tests are now required to see a play, unless one is vaccinated…and even then, the masked audience is just too much to bear somehow). But mostly, there is an overarching invitation to trust. Things are working out in these travels with my son, and it is good. Better I know than anything I could have planned. I have met a few harsh people here. Mostly though I have been met with tremendous support and care, which often puts me into one of those tearful states as beauty in any form somehow can touch a deep place and that seems to often be the place of tears. Keep writing Charles, as long as it serves you. You and your on-line group—even the comments here, have nourished my soul and continue to do so. I feel less alone as some friendships and family relationships have become more distant and the world changes, I hold to the rope of my own integrity despite it all and what I read from you today encourages me. I know if I let go, I would lose myself. And my soul remembers too much to do that—no matter how alone I may feel. And I and we are not alone…

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Fortunately I can do most things in my rural red town but I can relate to this: "I feel unwelcome in my town where tests are now required to see a play, unless one is vaccinated…and even then, the masked audience is just too much to bear somehow)"!!! I emailed to nicely question their (ridiculous) policy and got back boilerplate.

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But you keep trying, right?

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Not too much. I confess to feeling defeated by the, yes, mass psychosis which we have been experiencing. But maybe my email did some good - let them know that not ALL of their formerly loyal patrons are happy with this policy. No way am I going to pay good money for a ticket, AND pay for a test (the vaxxed don't have to get one because they don't transmit the virus - oh...wait...) and sit masked with an audience of masked people. No thanks. Not supporting the madness.

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Detach from outcomes but continue to resist. I also got boiler plate for my message to free Assange.

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Yeah good for you for putting it out there. So disgusting what they have done and are doing to him.

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We also live in a beautiful, small SW CO town & have been feeling it’s no longer home after 20 years. My husband & I both run our own businesses. We pulled our teen son out of school, after clearly seeing the brainwashing & insanity being promoted as ‘safety’. Witnessing many we know fully participating in the mass psychosis. At the same time, grateful there is a small group of people here that are awake. Some days it feels very daunting to exist in a world where the rose colored glasses are gone. Other days it is beautiful & magical. The key for me is always more time in nature. Rebalancing my nervous system & experiencing all that is ‘real’. Blessings to you on your journey with your son.

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Thank you Erica. The same to you. It takes courage to pull your son out of school…and I agree about nature. We made it to the Azores. So far the islands are nirvana yet the people seem unhappy and there is a patriarchal energy here that was surprising. We have one island left to see. My fingers are crossed it is different and I am going outside now to lie on a lava rock wall and gaze at the stars. It keeps the awe in me alive and it is rare to be in places so clear and beautiful at night. Thank you for your response.

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We are, all of us, in Blue Lockdown States (I live in the Left Coast), looking for Galt’s Gulch. I know it doesn’t exist but hoping my dear husband and I will find a place we can live in peace and safety in a small town in a Red Free State. I lived once in CO, during the Peña days. It is a beautiful state, but like mine, WA, it has been ruined by liberal politicians and their corrupt and compromised policies.

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Been feeling it tingle in my solar plexus all week. I think we’re about to go through a massive shift. Hold onto your britches! We got this.

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I agree! It feels big although there will be some rough patches for a while yet

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We are feeling and exploring the whole spectrum and range of our feeling landscape in preparation for creating resilience in ourselves and also creating wildly inclusive communities for the future. We have to feel all of it..the highs and lows and know that deeply within us. Our frequency has to change to love..to goodwill for others, compassion if we are to create our world anew. Media has us believing we are few. My friends...we are a LARGE wave of goodness, of HEART connected beings radiating freedom and love wherever we go...in whatever we see. Dhamma is on our side. Big LOVE to everyone from Africa.

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Aww, Charles, thanks for using my work, I'm delighted to be have been able to illustrate your wonderful writing in a small way. My partner just read it and said it's actually very pertinent to me, and articulated so much of what I've been feeling and trying to express and explore with him..He feels similar too. So many of us resonating with what you say here and lovely to have a space here in the comments to connect with you all without trolls!

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How lucky that your partner feels like you, Emma. Mine unfortunately not. 😔 Your painting is powerfull and touchy. 💜

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Thanks Dani , and I am sorry to hear that... Yes I am lucky, he was the first to question things actually, of the two of us... Some of our friends think we've lost the plot though!

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Hm, I know what you mean. Some of the people I used to spent time with think that too - Dani is loosing the plot. My husband unfortunately sometimes as well ... :( But! I stand in this world like a tree :)

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I don't think I have ever lived so much in the present moment as I am doing now, since the future has never been so uncertain. I'm not as brave as I'd like to be, but I hope I'm helping to nudge this world towards that guiding light.

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I feel that too 🥰

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I am hopeful but worried that my hopefulness is naivety

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I really understand that!

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It never ceases to astonish me how you manage to put words to my inner world so accurately, and with such timely precision, again and again. Thank you Charles. For extending a warm hand and for allowing that small dot of hope to become larger and brighter.

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Thank you for this, it rings true to me. I often feel like I'm just sitting with the sadness, and trying not to negate it by reminding myself how much better off I am than others. Why would that make me feel better? It just makes me feel fragile and vulnerable and bad for everyone else. I've started imagining that others have secret sparks of happiness and that things are working out for them. Every time I feel joy, I send the ripples out.

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Recently I have felt more hopeful. Removing myself from mainstream life helps. I then have to to dig deep when I am made aware of the madding crowd and try to keep that feeling of connection to somewhere that’s ok. Being really friendly with strangers is good too. Something I think I never bothered so much with, leaving it at polite.

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I feel much better this evening after attending the Worldwide Freedom Rally in my city. It was amazing to connect peacefully with other like-minded people

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Yes, I went to the Bristol one and it really lifted my spirit. Someone was playing music by Nate (We Do Not) that was very energising and hopeful and I danced for hours when I got home. U can Find him on Spotify!

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Until this tide drastically changes - for every hour spent consumed with dread and fear is one hour wasted in your life. Don't ignore but do not despair either. Live everyday to your absolute fullest and appreciate life.

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"Just saying, if you have been fluctuating between elation and despair, you are not alone. If despondency colors the breaking dawn, you are not alone. If a single ray of light (like a warm hello) dispels the despondency, you are not alone. If that hope is so fragile that a mere ill glance shatters it, you are not alone." This totally describes my experience lately. Thank you, Charles for making me realize I am not as alone as I feel...

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I know many cannot have land and animals to feed and take care of. It is a means for me and mine to almost totally ignore the chaos going on. We tend our land, our animals, and go on about our lives with little thought to the crumbling cities we see on the news.

One will ask themselves, how many times have my skills in animal husbandry, growing crops, driving long-haul trucks, etc, been ridiculed by those now seeing their cities come apart at the seams, wondering [finally] "where does my food come from"? Even the material to patch potholes, asphalt, concrete, all come from outside these mega hives of mimetic contagion, that seems to sway and swoon the occupants to every wind of doctrine?

Locust become so, through agitation. As grasshoppers breed and crawl upon one another, [often during drought and lack of food] they metamorphosis into a raving starving madness which becomes the locust.

The frenzy eventually subsides, as will some of this.

California U-haul companies ran out of trucks. People leaving the hive mind in droves. Unfortunately, many will bring their locust mind set with them. Not realizing their very actions for leaving were caused by they, themselves.

You city folk are scary creatures. Easily swayed by anything, anyone.

Get up at the crack of dawn to the mooing,bleating, nickering, crowing of farm animals, and all of this[ALL OF IT!!] seems quite trivial.

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This hellish era is the greatest betrayal of humanity. It’s my immediate reaction when someone turns on tv propaganda, hear the outlandish lies hissed by corrupt psychopaths; read script that is sold as news. Betrayal. Every damn day.

And it fades for precious moments, hours when laughter, love & prayer renew hope & determination to expose the bastards.

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